I said to babe yesterday, that he is obviously setting a great example to our kids, as little Louis, 4, pays me the most sincere, lovely compliments (Mummy, did you do your hair different today? You look beautiful!... Mummy, thank you, this dinner is so tasty!). That's the kind of Daddy Roddy...

Roddy and I took Eliza for an important appointment today.

We've always felt she displays autistic traits, and due to her brain malformation and unique chromosome pattern we've always accepted her little 'Eliza-isms' and worked around and with them - we've never pushed for a 'official'...

Back home, safe and sound.

It seems incredible to me that we humans can be so clunky, and awkward.

That after years... decades... of practice we can still deal with simple interactions in entirely the wrong way.

Last night as Roddy and I went to bed at 1am, tired but still awake as we always are...

I am sitting here in our kitchen, in a real mood... we go back to England tomorrow, our last trip back home until we permanently move on July 9th... and I don't want to go!!!

I love the quote from When Harry Met Sally, where Harry says 'when you decide you want to spend the rest of your life...

We have all been sad since Jake died on Tuesday. Today's the first day where I have listened to music and started to feel normal again. Roddy said, we all feel emotionally drained...and that's ok. Thanks to everyone who sent a nice note or comment it means a lot <3

I wanted to tell you...