It's the accent, I think

So recently, I've been feeling a lot of ways, and when I start to feel like this, I get myself in therapy. I've been to therapy for many stages of life, and it really really helps me - being able to offload on someone separate from the situation; it just takes a load off when things are feeling overwhelming.

Seeing Eliza die and come back to life on the floor has kind of altered me, and I see it when I'm trying to  sleep... my anxiety has hit new and interesting levels, so it's time to get back in the hot seat, me thinks.

I feel no shame in it. It's a healthy way to process any kind of trauma (try it if you haven't!) I think it's perfectly normal to not be able to brush off seeing Eliza like that, and being resuscitated etc. I'm at a point in my life where I'm perfectly good with saying >> I can't handle this.

The only problem is, in Florida, it's nearly impossible to find a good therapist. I want to go in-person which is even harder. The good ones don't take new patients, and the available ones... are available for a reason LOL.

I researched a bit on a local group and came up with 5 names recommended and called them all, a bit desperate as I was having a rough day.

One after the other... Not taking new patients, line not connecting, sorry, there's a waitlist. I called one therapist, and it went to voicemail. "I'm not taking new patients but for existing patients select this and that and the other," and I thought what the heck, I'll just leave a message.

Totally forgot about it, fully not expecting a callback.

Later that day I get a phone call: "Is this Susan Galbraith?"

"Yes"

"This is Dr. X. I'm calling about the message you left earlier"

I'm taken aback, so I say, "Oh wow, you said you weren't taking new patients, so I honestly wasn't expecting you to call me back!"

And she says (get this) "Well, the thing is, I'm not accepting new patients. [Long Pause] but I heard your accent and I'm intrigued. [Long Pause again] I mean I know it's ridiculous but Americans think because you have that accent, you are either highly intelligent or have an incredible story to tell, so ummmm... yeah.... I'm not taking new patients but I'd be happy to see you!"